August 25, 2017 § Leave a comment
I have decided to disconnect from social media for four days. Why? Because I cannot stand all of the negative news. All we hear about are all the horrible things happening in the world and it’s depressing and overwhelming. The idea that I brought children into such a world is even more overwhelming.
We are constantly bombarded with these messages about how divided we are as a nation and a people. How many things are broken and need to be fixed. Only we cannot seem to figure out on how to agree on a solution for anything. It seems like leaders are more interested in fixing it by their method rather than finding a solution for the people.
I’m tired of not being able to read the news, something that is supposed to be a reliable place to get factual news. Instead, we are subjected to biased rhetoric trying to persuade us from one side to another.
So, because of all of this and more, I have decided to stay off Instagram, Facebook, and even Snapchat. This is particularly hard because I am still friendless in North Carolina. I have to say though, I am not really feeling the withdrawal and it’s day two. My goal in all of this is to really try and view the world around me. Is it what people are saying? Is it really as bad on every level as the media portrays it? Or can I look at my neighbor on the left and on the right and find goodness there?
That’s what I plan on finding out even after I return to the world of social media.
Can I find goodness in the people around me?
August 12, 2017 § Leave a comment
Lately, I have been in this funk that I can’t seem to shake. Usually, this is because of my lack of weight loss, lack of pursuing school or something that I want to happen that just isn’t. This time I cannot find a reason for it. Part of me feels like it’s burnout from school, or maybe that my son is going to kindergarten in two weeks and it effecting me more than I want to realize. Maybe it’s the lack of friends that I have here in North Carolina, or that my sister just came for a week and a half and left a few days ago.
I’ve eaten my emotions this week. I’ve tried to shake it by focusing on school work and the kids, but it hasn’t been enough. My husband is trying his hardest to help me, but how can someone help me if I don’t know what I need?
I’m not sad or angry. I don’t want to cry. I just don’t want to do … anything. I know this is depression because normally a funk doesn’t effect my school work. Right now I am thinking of taking a term (8 weeks) off to just shut off for a bit. That would push my graduation date back. I don’t know.
I think writing here is helpful. I can feel myself feeling better as I sort my own feelings out on paper. I am not extremely extroverted, I do however, enjoy having friends. I enjoy having people to talk to and who share common interests. Even if it’s just about the children we are raising. I currently don’t even have that.
Things will change, life will get better, ten second pity party over.
Have a great weekend ya’ll!